If you ever do read all of this somehow, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for acting like a fool through all of this,
I'm sorry for changing as much as I did, I'm sorry that the relationship didn't work out, and I'm sorry that through everything, we were afraid to talk about eachothers feelings. I hope you can find someone who treats you better than I ever could.
I know your future is important and your work depends on your own well-being which i, unfortunately, pulled everything good out of. I hope your future is well, and I hope you can forgive me by then. thank you for being with me when I needed it. It really means a lot to me.